Nathan Sleepyhead!

Watching Nathan sleeping today, he watched me sleeping the other day so now its my turn hehe. We usually do this watch each other sleeping though we are best friend now, there are things that we still continue doing until now like one of our hobby is to watch each other sleeping on cam as we are far from each other. So usually I take a snap shots of him as he also take shots of me using his phone so its fair:P

God please guide me!

This past few days or weeks, I do not really know what is my goal in life. I am kinda depressed of everything that happen in my life. Lord please guide and help me. I did a lot of stupid decisions and mistakes in my life. I hope i can make things right. I hope I can also move on to everything so that i can't hurt anyone. Please help me. I badly needed you. I feel so alone and i needed you Lord to help me and pick me up now when this is my worst moment in my life.

The Art of Letting Go

One of the reasons why people get so sentimental
It is because, memories are the only things that don't change..
When everything else does..
There are things in life that you cant hold on forever,
no matter how much you fight for it.
Sometimes destiny isn't always good, it becomes playful

When you met someone you learned to love, you thought
that it was destiny who made your paths cross.
But what if making your paths cross is just a part
of the game that the playful destiny create?


Making you realize in the end that the preson you thought
that was destined for you wasn't really meant to stay...
But only destined to make you feel love and leave
you when you've already fallen.

It's not easy to state a reason when you decide to leave your love.
Some might think it's just an excuse...some might not actually believe...
Some will blame you, some might even be mad at you

What they don't see is the fact that...
it hurts you even more to hurt someone who doesn't deserve to be hurt..
especially when you cant actually state the reason
why you have to leave....

You can never own something that was never yours..
So lets stop gripping on things we expect to last forever..

Nothing lasts forever
Forever is a lie
everything is transitory.

So while you have something in your hand,
put in mind that its just borrowed...

So that someday when its gone, it wont take you eternity just to let it go...
When your feelings get strong for someone, its always wise to stop for a while
and give your heart...a time to breathe..

A time to use your mind to weigh the situation based on reason not on emotion
Because the saddest thing that can happen is when one fall in love while
the other wants nothing more than friendship....

Love can sometimes be magic...
But magic can sometimes be an illusion

There are times when I wish that I was limites to certain emotions
So that I'll never have to experience pain, never feel betrayed or disappointed, and never get my fragile heart broken

But the same thing means that I'll never know how it feels to love
and be loved in return ...
The thought o it kind of scares me..
To have a heart that's whole but numb or a heart that's broken but real..

Someday we'll all be looking back to those days we learned to love, get hurt, cry and fight..
Maybe when that time comes, we'll be laughing at our old dumb selves...
Realizing how stupid we were to stand up for thins we knew weren't really meant for us
But I guess learning takes times, and mistakes make one's journey fun..

Life is what we make it
Love makes the world go round.
So let's live, love, and take whatever pain it brings....
though it's hard to wait around for something that I know will never happen...
It's harder to stop when I know it's everything I've always wanted..

But you know what??
I'm glad
I'm glad it happened..
We're good friends...
And i'm thankful for that....
Take care always my dear friend..
I'm just here..

“FREEING THE HEART, MIND AND THE SOUL”

from the past:

• heart-broken

life never stops when your heart gets broken. life is too wonderful, for you to just stop on your tracks. – don't be bitter, keep moving! but, don't rush yourself into finding new love again; just to let that someone take you away from the pains that you are feeling. (heal yourself first-completely!) for, no matter what you do, there would always be a mark in your heart. a "scar" that will always remind you of all that you've been through! but don't feel bad. because, it only means that: "once then, you've had something beautiful and special with you, but for some reasons, it's been taken away from you…"

• being hurt

why do we get hurt? the answer is simple. it is because we love. then, why do we still love, if in the end, we'll just get hurt? my answer is this: in love there are risks you have to take, and getting hurt is one of them. me, I love because i'm not scared of getting hurt. it is not my concern. but, giving love! after all, it is the very essence of loving. right? to "give" love rather than, to "take" love. some people I know, when they get into a relationship, it's sad that they are preparing themselves already to get hurt, when they should first be preparing their hearts on loving that person. me, I am preparing myself to give love! more than getting hurt…yes, I still get hurt in the end – but it's my choice! at least, I got hurt only because, I knew that, I had loved. as it goes: " when you love, you have just given them he power to hurt you." …true.

• hurting

leaving someone you love, doesn't have to be so hurting! for, pains have been inflicted, and the heart had suffered sorrows and grief. so, why drive deeper stake in the heart? …to see the wound open for deeper cuts, then bleed to death? "if you'll have to kill me a hundred times, i'll live again a thousand more!" *people often hate those who make them feel their own inferiorities! *

• letting go and moving on

letting go and moving on doesn't really have to mean, leaving everything behind you. because, you take with you,*lessons* you've learned from the past experience, that would help you become better the next time. You also, take with you, *memories* you'll cherish forever in your heart – good or bad. because, it is something that had grown and become part of who you are. And it will never depart from you… "love brings great beauty to life, also great sadness that sometimes, you can't be sure if it is a fair exchange!

HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY BABY NATE!

It is our first year anniversary with my Baby Nate. Yeah I thank God despite for all the trials that we had gone through and long distance, it really proves that love conquers all. It is very hard to have a long distance relationship, i try my best to understand him and our schedule to talk and email him just to have communication with him since it is very important and in order to avoid misunderstandings, jealousy and falling out of love. I thank GOD that we are together until now. I know he loves me but I know too that its not enough, i thought its enough from the start but I learn that communication, trust, understanding, honesty and for giving time to each other is okay....

I have lots to say but i just dont know what and where to begin.

THANK YOU LORD:-)

I thank GOD for loving me so much and my family but more or less I want to thank him because me and Baby Nate we're okay now. I think this is like our first misunderstanding which makes me shock and depress because I can't believe it she misinterpret what I said. I just want to give him time. But at least we are okay now, and we talk about it and he apologize and I love him so much because he just don't want to lose me that is why he act that way. He afraid that he might lose me and cant have me for the rest of his life. Only GOD knows but I know he loves me so much so I guess I don't need anyone except him besides he makes me happy and complete and I think he is the one that GOD gives to me. I love him.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TITA CINDY, TITO JOSEPH AND REESHONA

Tita Cindy, I hope that GOD will bless you and meet all your needs and also help you from the things that you are struggling lately. Good health, protection, guidance, wisdom, and hope all your wish will come true, i wish you all the best though this is the most common word to say but it is from the bottom of my heart that I say this to you. Take care and GOD bless you! I hope that no matter what happen between me and your son, i hope we can still be friends. Thank you so much for being nice to me.

Tito Joseph, I love you as my best friend, I love you as my dear Uncle, I love you for being here with me and my family, I wish you all the best that life can offer. I wish you can find your future wife, the right one for you that wont hurt you and will love you for who you are and not just by your name and wont use you for other reason. I hope that we can reach our future goals and we can buy beach land and have some business soon.

Reeshona, Hope someday you will become a very good and intelligent woman and i hope that someday you can become a very good professor in Math like your Mommy or maybe a great engineer like your Daddy. I am sure you will become the class valedictorian straight to college like Aunt/Tita Daisy which is one of my dreams until today but even i didnt make it, i hope you will become like her as thats what we want from you. I love you though you wont smile that much but i hope you learn to smile often, but maybe you change as you are still very young.