state of confusion

Confuse with what I feel about every aspect in my life..
Confuse with my responsibility as eldest sister
I have to set to be a good example to my siblings..
I have to be a role model...but I am not a machine and not perfect...


Confuse with my responsibility as gf
Its hard to know what I can give and to let someone you love to know what you really feel..........
If this is for real or not...
Afraid of the future.... afraid of lies, pains and hurts..................


Confuse with my responsibility as a good daughter....
When I cant seem make my parents happy and cant meet their expectations..
I'm depress when I cant seem to be the best daughter as they can have.............

Confuse with my career..
Being a political adviser, politician, political analyst?
Being a call center agent?
Being a medical researcher?
Being a social worker?
All I know is that I am good in communication and analytical skills................


Confuse of society...............
Disgusting corrupt country
Stupid people
Rubbish environment...
Stupidity of church and government....hypocrisy, pride, judgment................

Churches...Priests..........Pastors............
It is like this................
People killing people dying
Children hurting and ?you hear them crying
Can practice what you preach
Would you turn the other cheek?
Father father father help us
Send some guidance from above
Cause people got me got me questioning
Where is the love?