It's hard to be away from someone you love..I do not know if we will meet soon or we will never meet. It hurts that you love someone far away from you. You cannot even hug and kiss him. I am in a situation now where i do not know what will be my future with someone i love. I do not know if i can still have a chance to see him from Bahrain or not anymore. A lot of things on my mind lately, i know trials are part of our daily life. And missing someone is part of it. I know this is what become the challenges of me having a long distance relationship. I do not even know if it last but i hope it will if its also GOD's will. I admit i have a lot of trials lately, its hard sometimes to conquer trials as it wants me to get piss off and want me to lose all my patience. I know That GOD is testing me on how big my faith unto Him, no matter like how big he had given me a trials like Job situation..I feel like all aspect in my life was put in a situation where i am shaken whether to choose between the right and wrong things together with the consequences of actions i take whatever i choose. Sometimes i want to give up but i know its not my nature to give up, i know i was born to face things and not to be coward as what the Bible said on Joshua 1:9. I am a fighter and i do not give up trials so easy because thats the challenge of life. It is to face the trials, challenges or problems without it, life is so boring. Life have no sense without trials but as i want to say many times its part of our daily life without it life feels like empty. But too much trials is not good like too little was not either good. Any too much or little is not good.
I just want to offer my life to God now as i can't take it sometimes when people tries to prejudge me, though i never knew them. I can sense that its insecurities that push them to do it. I love it when people judge negatively especially the part where they find out that they were wrong. Though i am so sleepy now hehe.. i am still writing non sense thing that i feel before i go to sleep.. i know i write things that it makes no sense but i just want to burst it out.
I just want to offer my life to God now as i can't take it sometimes when people tries to prejudge me, though i never knew them. I can sense that its insecurities that push them to do it. I love it when people judge negatively especially the part where they find out that they were wrong. Though i am so sleepy now hehe.. i am still writing non sense thing that i feel before i go to sleep.. i know i write things that it makes no sense but i just want to burst it out.
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Colen, dear, if I could, I would hold you close and we could feel grief together.
Sometimes, we have to take one step at a time. God will uphold us, and we will see the light. Hold strong, dear daughter, it will get better.
Thank you Tita Cindy,i do appreciate you so much..if only we are together i can share lots of things in life with you. Thank you for the encouragement. I love you Tita Cindy and thanks for letting me know that you are willing to be with me in times of my sadness..God Bless you!
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