A Big Challenge

When i wake up early in the morning, there are a lot of things i heard that it seems not good and things that your name is drag into the issues. I sometimes can't understand the world, people, society, and things in life when you do things good people seems to get envy to you and people wants to let you down, the "crab mentality" of the Filipinos is not a very good attitude. When you do good things people try to bring you down and people try to get jealous why? is it wrong to do good things. And the most painful thing is that the people who did this to me were just close people to me..jealousy, envy, and insecure people...People try to bring me down. I am so depress sometimes that you do not anything to them but people want to see that you are so down. Depression arise is not good because it brings stress and pressures. And sometimes if you do good things people still think that you are not good and want to destroy reputation, why? I think my best was not good enough? I try to do everything that i can do but how come that " thank you" is not the word they want to say, people can really be abusive, people are so bad. I want to say that i hate, retaliate but then again that is not a good christian attitude. All i can do is pray them but if too much things they do against you, will i still always pray for them? Yeah but sometimes maybe this is the time that i want confrontation though i am not used to it but this is not the thing i want to do but they push me to do it. It's really hard to face the harshness of reality.